Two can play that game

"Fareeee…hurry up!" Nicki yelled for the third time. Safaree walked out the room fixing his cloths pissed that she woke him up.

"Damn Nic, I'm coming! Wake me up out of my sleep for no damn shopping trip like you couldn't go by ya self" He mumbled while putting his shoes on.

"What was that?" She raised her eyebrow at him with a stern look.

"Nothing Mother." He said sarcastically.

"That's what I like to hear baby." She said patting his head. He pushed her hand off his head and gave her the dead face.

"I'm sorry Faree it's just I need to hurry up and get these Christmas gifts for everyone. Christmas is in 3 days and we still haven't been shopping. We have so much shit to get." Safaree rubbed his hands over his face and huffed. He hated shopping especially with Nicki because she has to go in every store to see who got the best stuff before she buy anything.

"Plus…I'm sure you'll love your Christmas gift daddy" She whispered in his ear seductively.

"What is it?" He smirked at her.

"Not telling you. Let's go!" She said already walking out the door.

"Damn." He whispered following her.

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"Which one should I get him?" Safaree and Nicki had been in the video game store for about 20 minutes now trying to find the perfect games for Maciah. Safaree was getting irritated because every game she thought looked cool she threw it in the little basket on her arm. She had gotten Maciah 13 games and said she would get one more to even the number out. Now she couldn't decide between the classic Grand Theft Auto or the new Mario and Sonic game.

"Nic, get Grand Theft Auto he is not going to want no Mario Brothers or Sonic game. Besides you already got Sonic classic." Safaree said.

"but what if he open his gifts and say he wanted this…" When it came to her little brother she would spend every penny she got to please him. Money wasn't a problem but Safaree felt she spoiled him too much.

"Why you ask if you wasn't gonna listen?" Safaree asked annoyed.

"I am gonna listen come on lets buy these and get you fed mamas baby is getting cranky." He dead faced her and paid for the games.

"Let's go." They loaded the car and went back in to the food court.

"What we eating?" Safaree asked.

"Ummmm…I can't decide you choose and get me something. Imma go find a seat. My feet hurt." Nicki said.

"Ain't nobody told you to wear then damn heels anyway" Safaree laughed at her and went to find some food. He knew she would want some chicken so that's what he got her and went and got him some Chinese food. After they ate they headed home to hide the gifts since the family would be arriving first thing tomorrow morning and both of them were too lazy to wrap anything.
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"Okay everything is hidden. You're staying here right?" Nicki gave Safaree the puppy dog eyes.

"Naw, my fam coming in town tomorrow afternoon so I gotta go home after I pick them up." Nicki straddled his lap.

"Well I'm coming to stay with you at your house." Safaree laughed at her.

"You not gonna stay here with your mama and brothers?" Safaree asked.

"They know where everything at I don't have to stay here and babysit them." She added.

"Naw. You not gonna leave them like that. You haven't seen them in about 6 months and you trying to leave them?" Safaree raised an eyebrow at her.

"…but you know I can't fall asleep with out you next to me. I haven't slept alone in about 10 years. What makes you think I wanna start now?" Nicki laid her head on his chest.

"Baby, it's one night. Besides you can have Maciah sleep with you tomorrow night. Then everything will be back to normal. You'll be alright." Safaree explained to her while stroking her hair.

"Ugh. I guess but if I can't sleep I will be calling you no matter what time it is!" She said.

"That's cool." He kissed her forehead and started rubbing her hair. They sat in silence for a while until Nicki broke it. Playing in her hair was turning her on.

"We haven't had sex in 2 weeks…" Nicki said seductively while nibbling on his ear.

"Who's fault is that?" Safaree said while clearing his throat. Nicki looked at him and kissed him pulling his bottom lip into her mouth before speaking up.

"If you keep getting slick I will be responsible for another week…" She tried to slide off his lap. He held her down and put his face in her boobs. She looked down and smirked feeling his erection under her. He bit down on her boobs and sucked the pain away leaving a mark and getting a moan in return.

"Don't forget I know what to do to get you worked up too. Now, Do we have a solution to the problem?" He asked pulling back and looking into her lust filled eyes. She leaned forward and kissed him before sucking on his neck making her way to his ear.

"Nope." She hurried and jumped off his lap and went to get her phone.

"Yo…you play too much. That's why I'm going home tonight. I gotta get rid of this erection some how." He laughed knowing that would catch her attention. She came back into the room and smacked him in his head.

"Yeah…okay. Play with me if you want too." She said.

"That's what I was tryna do." He replied smacking her ass when she walked by. "Clever. Lover boy." They watched movies and teased each other for the rest of the night until they got tired.

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"Ahhhhh…there they are! Come on Faree." Nicki dragged Safaree to the baggage claim where she spotted her family.

"Mommy…" Carols head whipped around when she heard her daughters loud mouth. She didn't spot her in the crowd so she turned back around and helped gather the luggage. Nicki dead faced her and pushed through the crowd still dragging Safaree behind her by his wrist. He said sorry to everyone Nicki rudely pushed out of the way to get to her mother. When she made it through the crowd she let Safaree go and ran to jump on Jelani's back screaming like a kid who just seen Santa. Safaree smiled and shook his head while hugging Mama Carol and giving the guys dap and a manly hug. He smiled at Nicki pinching Ciahs cheeks like she always did. If only they knew where her hands just were. She had been messing with Safaree all morning "getting him ready for his Christmas gift" as she would say.

On the way to the airport she had managed to get her hands in his pants and well you know. He was still trying to hide his erection. He grabbed as many bags as he could and they made their way out of the airport. Little did he know Mama Carol had clocked his semi-erection when she got clear view of them. She planned on embarrassing them later when she got them alone. When they got outside Safaree placed the bags he held and let them finish while he pulled Nicki to the side.

"The games gotta stop. You got me hard as a rock playing meet and greet." He spoke in a low tone.

"You scared?" He cocked a eyebrow up at her while she continued talking.

"You scared you can't hold out much longer?" She smirked at him knowing her trash talk would start a war. He looked up and seen Jelani and Ciah struggling to get all the stuff in the trunk while Mama Carol coached them on. He pulled her forward and groped her not caring who saw as long as the family wasn't paying attention. She gasped and blushed red.

"Let the games begin baby girl." He let her go and sniffed his fingers.

"Just what I like Strawberries....Oh and how do you plan on winning this? Cause I know you running like a waterfall right now." She stood there shocked before rushing to get into the car. After all the luggage was finally packed up. They headed towards Nicki's large condo in the suburbs.

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"Alright, y'all know where the guest bedrooms are so go put your stuff up." Nicki said once they made it in the house.

"Faree, ummm what time is Mama Lisa and your sisters coming? I need to start on dinner." Nicki asked.

"In about 3 hours and yeah you do cause I'm hungry as fuck." He replied.

"I bet. Are y'all coming here from the airport or going home to drop their stuff off?" She asked.

"Imma take them to get settled in then imma come back here. Why?" He asked.

"Cause I'm going with you I don't want to start cooking without them. I'm not cooking all of that food by myself." Nicki said.

"Alright." He turned on the tv and Nicki went to go check on everyone.

"Hey ma." Nicki said going into Carols room.

"Hey baby girl…How is everything?" She asked.

"Every thing's great. I just got a raise at work. Safaree and I are better than ever and I have my family here for the holidays. How's everything back at home?" Nicki said.

"Better. Maciah has been bringing home honor roll grades. Jelani spends a lot more time with him and comes around more often." She responded.

"Awe, that's good. Do you need anything?" Nicki said not wanting to hear anymore.

"No. I'm fine. I'll be out in a second." Carol said.

"Okay." Nicki left the room and peeked in Maciah's room to see him and Jelani sitting on the floor playing the game. She went back into the front room and reached over Safaree from the back of the couch and leaned in on him.

"You hungry baby?" She asked.

"Yes, I'm very hungry." Safaree said.

"What you want to eat? I can fix something right quick or we can run to pick something up." He grabbed her hand and pulled her around to him.

"What if I said I wanted to eat you?" He said once he reached her ear.

"I would say that can be arranged." She blushed.

"What if I wanted a taste now?" He responded.

He moved his hands between her legs and began to massage her over her leggings.

"Faree, stop. My mama is…" She had her head down biting on her lip with her eyes closed fighting every voice in her head telling her to give him the business. He buried his face and begin sucking and kissing her neck as he pushed his hands down the front of her leggings. She lifted her head and kissed him. As quickly as they started they were interrupted by someone clearing their throat. Safaree's head shot up to see who it was while Nicki kept her head down already knowing who walked in on him seducing her. She sunk down more and buried her face in his neck hiding her flushed red face. Safaree cleared his throat.

"Ummmm…me and Nic was about to go pick up something to eat. Y'all hungry?" Safaree asked.

"Sure. What were you going to go get?" Mama Carol asked staring at Nicki. Nicki still haven't picked up her head.

"Some Popeyes. We have something to drink here already." Safaree said.

"Okay. Yeah, just get a couple family meals or something." Carol said.

"Yes ma'am." Safaree said smiling at her. She turned to walk away but stopped.

"Nicki…" Nicki picked her head up and looked at her mom.

"Yes?" She looked up.

"Don't be so embarrassed you're red as a tomato and Safaree wash your hands before leaving this house you too Onika…please spare me next time." Nicki groaned and buried her face back into Safaree's neck. Safaree waited until Mama Carol left the room before her burst out laughing. Nicki pinched his side.

"Not funny." She said.

"You're right. It's hilarious" He said laughing even harder.

"You should have seen your face. You looked like you saw a ghost." Safaree said.

"Shut up and lets go." She groaned and got off his lap.

"Don't forget to wash your hands." Safaree said. She turned around and dead faced him.

"Okay, I quit. Let's go." Safaree said still laughing.

What was I thinking

*Okayy so after this chapter this short story is over. I'll be posting a one shot tomorrow. I'm tired of this the shit is depressing.*


Once Lauren made it to the hospital she looked around to see if she saw him still convinced that he was there because of his mom. After looking around the hospital for 15 minutes she asked for help.

"Excuse me" The nurse behind the counter already knew why she was there having seen Safaree come in earlier and remembering her most eventful day at work the day Safaree lost his mom.

"Yes. How may I help you?" The nurse asked.

"I'm looking for a Safaree Samuels. Is he here?" Lauren asked.

"Yes, he is. I can see what room he's in for you and page the doctor to see how he's doing and if he can have visitors. You can take a seat and soon as I have all of that I will let you know." The nurse explained.

"Wait, He's IN the hospital? What's wrong with him? Is he okay? Is he alive?" Lauren rushed out.

"Ma'am I'm not allowed to share that with you without his permission but I promise I will get back to you as soon as possible."

"You can't even tell me if my brother is alive? Please just give me something! Please." Lauren pleaded.

"Look, all I can tell you is that we will do the best we can and don't take that as something bad has happened because I do not know his status as of right now. Please have a seat so I can get the information. I promise as soon as I hear something I will let you know." The nurse instructed. Lauren let out a long hard breath and went to sit in the waiting room.

She didn't know if she should call and let the girls and Nic know or not but she had to tell someone so what the hell. She called Candi.

"Hello?" Candi answered.

"Look, I don't know what's wrong with Safaree but he's in the hospital and they won't tell me anything. I think the only person on emergency contact for him is his mom and Nic. Candi, What are we supposed to do? What if something is wrong with him?" Lauren said now crying.

"Calm down. We'll have to bring Nic out there and let's pray that nothing is wrong because I don't know if I can handle that let along Nic." Candi said trying to calm Lauren down.

"But, she's already worried herself sick. This is just more stress if she don't stop stressing she'll be up in here next. God, I don't wanna wake her up with this news." Lauren said.

"We don't have a choice. We'll try to keep her as calm as possible. Besides she's already awake she took a cat nap her stubborn ass just won't come out the room." Candi sighed.

"Okay. Well how about y'all handle that and get up here before I lose my damn mind." Lauren said.

"Okay we'll be there soon." Candi said hanging up.

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 Candi went in the guest room to wake TT up and tell her what was going on. She still don't know how this bitch went to sleep and was supposed to be on Nic sitting duty with her. After waking TT up and explaining everything to her they went to Nics room.

"Nicki? Are you up?" TT asked. Nicki sniffed and shifted in the bed to wipe her face.

"Aww. Nic stop crying. Come on boo you gotta get up. We have to go." Candi said. Her and TT didn't know how to break the news to her so they just decided that they would wing it.

"Go? Where to?" Nicki responded.

"Something's wrong with Safaree." TT said. Nicki's head snapped up and she looked at them to continue.

"We don't know yet but he's in the hospital and..." Candi continued.

"IN THE HOSPITAL? WHAT HAPPENED? IS HE OKAY?" Nicki yelled.

"We don't know yet. All we know is that he's there and you're the only person that can get information because you're on the emergency contact list." Candi explained.

"Wait..Where's my phone? Did they call me? Come on. Let's go!" Nicki got out of bed and rushed to put her shoes and coat on before grabbing her phone and leaving out the door. She looked down at her phone and seen she had 9 missed calls from the hospital. Candi and TT trailed behind her as quick as possible. They've never seen her move so fast.

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They made it to the hospital in record time and Nicki rushed to the front desk while TT and Candi went to find Lauren.

"Excuse me. I'm Onika Maraj. You called me because Safaree Samuels is here." The lady looked in the computer to confirm everything Nicki had told her.

"Yes, Ms. Maraj. We called because Safaree was dropped off and when he got here he was not responsive. He was passed out but an older man dropped him off. He is responsive now but he won't let the doctor do anything to help him. Maybe you can talk to him because if we don't get fluids and food in him soon this can end really bad." The girls walked up and heard the end of what the doctor said before Nicki broke down. Lauren grabbed Nicki and pulled her into a hug.

"Is she allowed to go back?" Candi asked.

"Yes, but only her. The doctor is still trying to work with him." The nurse replied.

"Nicki, You have to calm down. If he see you like this he'll lose his mind. You have to go talk to him and be strong for him. Can you do that?" Lauren asked.

"I don't know. I-I don't know what to do!" Nicki cried.

"It's gonna be alright baby girl but you have to calm down. You have to talk to him. You're the only person he listens to besides his mom and you know how that goes. You're all he got." Lauren coached Nicki as she tried to pull herself together.

"Ma'am, are you ready to go back?" Nicki looked at the nurse and shook her head yeah before following her back to Safaree's room. When they reached the door Nicki stopped.

"Does he know I'm here?" She asked.

"No, I didn't want to tell him you were here. I didn't know how he would take that. He seems so angry. Maybe you can calm him down." She suggested. Nicki nodded her head before the nurse walked away and let her get some time to talk to him.

"Safaree..." Nicki said entering the room. Safaree looked back hearing the only voice left to calm him when he was angry. His hard exterior quickly went soft when he saw her. He looked her over and saw her red puffy eyes and her hair out of place. He haven't seen her like this since she lost her grandmother 4 years ago and immediately got up and pulled her to him. Soon as she was in his arms she broke down crying as he released his tears.

"Faree, you have to let them treat you." She sobbed.

"I can't lose you too. I need you. You can't do this to yourself. Please. Please, let them help you." She cried. Safaree immediately felt bad as the tears came down harder. How could he think about leaving her. She needed him. He needed her. He wasn't going to let the doctors treat him. He was going to go home and beg for God to take him and let him be with his mom. How could he be so selfish? He didn't think about Nicki. He didn't think about how his sisters and nieces and nephew would feel. They adored him. How could he just leave the people that meant so much to him.

"Okay...I will. Shhh..." He whispered into Nickis hair while holding her as she cried. Even though he was weak and hurt he was blind to the fact that he wasn't the only one that was hurt. He was blind to the fact that he was also increasing everyone else's pain by shutting the world out. Now he knew. He understood. He heard. He listened.

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 11 months later

"Fareeee..." Nicki yelled. Safaree rushed to her feet and grabbed her hands.

"Is it time? Are your ready? You need to see a doctor?" Nicki looked up and dead faced him.

"No. All I wanted was for you to some sit with me but you a little too hype. Calm down. I'm only 6 months." Safaree looked her over and released the breath he was holding. After the accident and the death of his mother he has been extremely protective especially since Nicki was pregnant.

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6 months earlier

Nicki woke up to someone pulling on her t-shirt. She squinted her eyes and looked at the person in front of her. 

"Nicki, wake up. We gonna have a baby." Nicki shot up out the bed and pulled her hair from her face looking at Safaree confused. 

"Safaree what the hell are you talking about?" Safaree stood up and tried to pull her shirt over her head again. 

"Move. What are you talking about?" Nicki said pushing Safaree hand. Safaree threw his head back and sighed. 

"Look. We gotta have a baby." He explained. He pulled he close and kissed her neck. 

"Faree, Were not ready for kids. Where is all this coming from?" Nicki asked. 

"A...a dream. I had a dream my mama was holding a baby in a white rocking chair. She was talking to the baby saying you look just like your daddy. My grand baby. She was so happy. That means something Nic." Safaree said. She pushed Safaree back. 

"No...ummm maybe your sister is pregnant. Maybe in the future we can have a baby but right now is not the time." Nicki said walking into the bathroom. Secretly Safaree hoped and prayed that she was. His dream meant something right?

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Safaree sat on the couch behind Nicki rubbing her stomach.

"I'm so excited. You have three more months baby girl." Nicki pushed his hand.

"It's a boy. I still don't know how you figured out I was pregnant before I did though." Safaree smiled.

"I told you. I have psychic abilities. Moms looking out for me. She tells me everything so you better not be tryna cheat on me in the future cause I will know before you do." He said. 

"Safaree, Shut up." They shared a laugh. Nicki looked up and stared at his face.

"I love you. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm so glad your doing better. I was losing my mind."
"I love you too. Thank You." He said before pecking her lips. She smiled. Everything wasn't back to normal but it was better than before.

I'm not okay

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Safaree woke up the next morning and crept out of bed trying not to disturb Nic. He went to the bathroom and freshened up. He couldn't think straight. He doesn't want Nicki to feel used but he couldn't stay here and look her in the face everyday without trying to control her every move. He knew her personality was too strong for him to challenge. He couldn't even see himself getting behind a wheel again let along the love of his life. He couldn't control her could he? Right now he would work on controlling himself.
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"Faree, where are you going?" Nicki asked waking up from her deep sleep.

"Ummm Imma go home and get somethings together." He sniffed.

"Baby, Are you crying?" She got up out of bed and made her way over to him.

"Naw Nic. I'm good. How you feeling?" She could hear his voice break which broke her heart all over again. Even though she was breaking inside she couldn't let him know that. She wrapped her arms around him from behind and rested her head on his back. He threw his head back and sighed. The tears flowed down his face as he fought himself internally. He needed some air.

"Faree. Talk to me." Nicki whispered. "I'm fine. I just need some air." He responded without looking at her. She felt it was more to it but couldn't figure it out. He was leaving her. He turned around and kissed her passionately.

"I love you, Onika. I love you." He cried.

"I love you too, Faree." She said as the tears escaped her eyes.

"I'll be back." That was all he said before she watched as his back disappeared out of the apartment. She couldn't understand for the life of her why this day was more emotionally draining than yesterday.
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Safaree made it outside and took a deep breath as he let the tears fall harder. He began walking the 6 miles back to his apartment. It gave him time to think but was also draining physically and emotionally. As he was walking he lost his balance and fell. When was the last time he had anything to drink or eat? He was seeing double and decided to sit there.

"Sir, Are you okay ? Do you need help?" He looked up at the old man.

 "I'm fine." He said.

"Look you don't look to good. Can I give you a ride? Do I need to call an ambulance?" He said grabbing Safaree's arm.

"LET ME GO! WHAT? WHAT DO YOU WANT? I'M FINE. LEAVE." Safaree stumbled and pushed the old man before the man decided to leave him alone. He began walking again deciding he would just walk it off.

"You alright see. You got this." He coached himself as he approached the long empty road to his home.
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"Nicki? NIC-KI?" Lauren called her name for the fourth time. Every since Nicki had came to work this afternoon she has been in and out figuring something was just not right. Something was wrong. She shouldn't have let him just walk out upset this morning.

"Ummm. yeah?" She snapped out of it and looked up at Lauren.

"It's our lunch break. I was gonna meet Candi and TT for lunch. Are you down?" Lauren knew she friend needed someone to talk to and called a best friends meeting.

"Look Laur, I have so much..." "No. Look Nicki. We are not taking no for an answer. You're coming. Come on. Get up." Lauren walked over to grab Nicki's coat and car keys. Nicki looked at her crazy.

"Oh. I let my mom get my car today." Nicki nodded and left out the room behind Lauren not having enough strength to put up a fight today. She knew she need someone to talk to anyway. Holding it in was becoming too much.
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All the girls had kept quiet for the most part and watched Nicki try and keep cool. Which was weird because it was freezing outside.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi said breaking the silence. Nicki looked up at her and sighed while the other girls gave her a death glare.

"Nothing. I'm just hot." Laurens head snapped up.

"Hot? What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi sucked her teeth.

"How you just looked at me bitch? Shut up."Candi said.

"Okay, you was being rude. I'm asking a question." Lauren said. Candi threw her arms up.

"Annnd, What I said wasn't a question becaussse?" Candi raised an eyebrow.

"Bitch, You was rude. End of story." Nicki smirked but couldn't be bothered to laugh at her friends right now.

"I think he's gone." Nicki blurted out. All the girls stopped and looked at her face. Nicki put her head down as a tear fell.

"Gone? Gone where?" TT asked.

"Yeah, Where? The Safaree I know would never leave you." Candi added.

"I will cut his ass" Lauren said under her breath.

"He's not the same Safaree. That's the point! He's broken and I can't fix it. What the fuck did I go to college for if I can help all the people in my office but can't help the love of my life! What the fuck am I going to do?" Nicki broke down for the first time in 4 years. Everyone in the coffee shop looked at her while her friends crowded around and tried to calm her down. She screamed. She cried. She let it all out right there for the world to see. For everyone to see but Safaree.
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Safaree continued his walk trying to convince himself that Nicki didn't really love him so it wouldn't be so hard to leave.

"She don't love you man. She cried one time when you lost your mom. One time. How could she love you when she can stand there like nothings wrong? How the fuck could she possibly love your dumb ass?" He hit himself in the head.

"You sell drugs dog. She got a got a job. A real job." Safaree chuckled at himself.

"Nigga, you really thought she could love you? She's beautiful and you're just aright. Okay, you fine but you ain't as fine as her." He argued with himself as he watched his house come into view. Safaree felt light headed. He was feet away from his front door but stumbled before he made it. He blacked out.
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 "I need to go see if my brother is okay." Lauren said to Candi & TT standing outside of Nicki's bedroom door. They took Nicki home when she began to break down at the coffee shop. Once she calmed down and fell asleep Lauren decided she would go talk and see where Safaree's head is and how he was while Candi and TT stayed with Nic.

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Lauren had been knocking on Safaree's door for about 10 minutes.

"I know his funny looking ass in there." She looked through the window and still seen nothing. She saw his car in the driveway and seen his car and knew she would never catch him walking.

"Ugh. OPEN THE DOOR, BITCH. I MEAN SAFAREEEEE, OPEN THE DOOR." She yelled trying to remind herself she was there to comfort him not to yell at him. Safaree's neighbor heard someone yelling and knocking on his door and decided to go check it out. Earlier he watched Safaree fight and talk to himself before passing out in his driveway. He rushed to him and took him to the nearest hospital after fighting with himself on if he would just leave him or not. He was and older guy and couldn't stand niggas like Safaree so watching him pay there would have been amazing for him.

Earlier

"The same nigga that said fuck you and threw money at me." The old man said. He shook his head before lifting Safaree and putting him in the back of the truck.

"Ha. Young man you better be glad I know the Lord and I ain't got work for another hour or yo ass would be grass. Good for nothing non working ass nigga." Okay, He can admit he was a little jealous of the life Safaree had. He hated working from check to check to have his wife come home from her law job looking down on him. He looked in his rear view mirror back at Safaree.

"Ugly ass. Man, I can't believe I'm doing this." He stopped in front of the hospital and laid him on the bench as a nurse approached and asked what happened. The old man shrugged not saying a word as he left and made his way to work to make that check.

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"Excuse me? Miss?"

"What?" She huffed. He looked shocked.

"I was just going to tell your disrespectful lil self he was in Freodert hospital." The man said.

"What is he doing there?" Lauren asked. The old man shrugged and walked away as Lauren fought the idea to throw a stone at his head.

"Grumpy ass man" She figured Safaree was just there to go back to where he had last seen his mom. She made her way to the hospital while calling to check on Nicki. Candi answered the phone sounding like she had a mouth full of food.

"Hewoo" Candi answered. Lauren chuckled.

"Bitch swallow." Lauren said.

"Shut up. What?" Candi asked.

"I went to Safaree house and that old evil ass man next door said he was at the hospital." Lauren explained.

"Hospital? What happened? I ain't telling Nic!" Candi yelled.

"If your loud mouth ass already haven't told her. Stop yelling. I think he's just there because of his mom. Ya know?" Lauren asked trying to remain positive.

"No! I don't know. Why would he go there when he can always go to her grave. Duh?! I knew something was wrong. Damn, I felt it. What you gonna tell Nic?" Candi asked.

"Tell Nic? Oh naw TT telling Nic!" Lauren said.

"You childish." Candi said.

"How? You said it first" Lauren asked.

"You know what just hurry up and see of he's okay. Call us back with details." Candi said before ending the call.

I'll be there

“When your backs up on the wall; chronic failure you've been called; When you feel there's no escape I'll be there.” - Tiffany Evans

Safaree ran pass the elevator and rushed up the stairs of the apartment complex. Although it may have been easier and quicker to take the elevator he just didn't have the patience to wait on it. He feel as if he just made the biggest mistake of his life and needed to fix it before his life came crashing down around him. This was love.

When he finally reached the 5th floor of the building he glanced at the far end of the hallway where her apartment was located. He paced back and forth quickly wondering how he had been so stupid to break up with her, to break her heart, to leave the love of his life because he was mad at the world. He was never mad at her she just tried to comfort him in his time of need but him cry in front of a woman that he made a promise to stand strong for, no. He couldn't do that. She had to leave before he broke down in front of her and she wouldn't leave. She wouldn't go so he had to break her heart. She had to go. What else could he had done?

5 hours earlier

Safaree had been in his apartment for 3 days now alone. No food. No water. No nothing. Alone. He was laying in his bed with the permanent scowl that had been set to his face since he left the hospital. He wouldn't answer his phone or his door. He felt like he needed to be alone. That's not what he needed. He was dragging himself into a deep depression. Something he may not be able to get out of if he didn't get help soon.

Safaree heard his apartment door open and close. Having no idea who it was or caring he laid there in silence. He silently hoped it was someone there to take his life away; someone to relieve him of the pain he felt in his heart. He felt a hand on his shoulder but still had yet to face who was standing behind him. The person sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed the back of his head. All of a sudden he felt calm and he felt all of the emotions he tried to hold back ready to be released. Then, he knew who it was behind him.

“Nicki, What are you doing here?” He said emotionless. 

“Baby, you have to get up. You can't sit in this house forever and hide from reality. You have to get up. Please.” Her voice broke. 

“Leave.” He got up and grabbed her hand furiously pulling her towards the door. 

“You can't be here Nicki. You have to leave. Go home.” He said still pulling her towards the door not knowing that he was slightly dragging her. He would never hurt her intentionally but right now was just not a good time. 

“Safaree, let me go. I'm not leaving. Baby, you need to talk to someone. You can't hold all of this in.” She said calmly. 

“NICKI LEAVE.” He yelled once they were in front of the door. 

“No. I won't leave you like this. I love you and I hate seeing you like this.” She reached for his face but he pushed her hand away. 

“I can't do this anymore Nicki. You have to leave.” As he said those words it broke her heart into a million pieces. She knew he was just upset but it hurt her to hear those words from him. 

“Can't do what?” She asked afraid of the answer she would receive in response. 

“US. YOU. I DON'T LOVE YOU NICKI CAN'T YOU SEE? LEAVE. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. LEAVE.” He yelled making her jump. 

“Baby, you don't mean that.” She cried. “Yes, I do. Leave.” He said through gritted teeth. She looked into his eyes and noticed she was not talking to her Safaree. The love of her life but what would she expect from a man that just lost his mother. She left without another word.

Once she left he slammed the door shut and slid down it. He put his head in his hands and just cried. For the first time since the doctor came out and told him she didn't make it. He cried. It was the worst pain in the world and what made it worse is that he just pushed away the love of his life, his world, his Nicki. After attempting to pull his self together he made his way out to fix things for the first time in 3 days.


Present

Safaree stood outside of Nicki's apartment door contemplating on whether or not he should knock. Would she forgive him? Would she take him back? Finally, he knocked on the door. After knocking for what seemed like forever she finally opened the door. Her eyes were bloodshot red and her face was puffy from crying. When she saw who was standing in front of her she felt the urge to run into his arms and tell him everything was going to be okay but like before she didn't want to be rejected. She went back into her home leaving the door open for him to come in without saying a word.

When Safaree entered he found her in the living room sitting on the couch surrounded by balled up tissues. He felt every emotion he had felt when he saw her earlier rushing back to him. The difference between then and now though was he couldn't hold back. He couldn't fight the tears that burned his eyes.
He walked over to her and pulled her into his lap. He immediately rested his head into her breast and not a second later after she wrapped her hands around his neck he released. He released everything. She held him not saying a word. There were no words for this moment. No words for this emotion. No words to mend his heart. No words to bring his mother back. Nothing.

Once he released everything he looked up into her eyes and she wiped his tears.

“I thought I lost you.” He said barley audible.

“I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have tried to push you away. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I shouldn't have grabbed you like that. Baby, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I don't know what I would do without you. You're all I have. I love you. I need you.” He said as he fought to hold back the second round of tears that were threatening to spill. Before he could say anything else she kissed him. Suddenly he felt like he needed that. He felt like that was his only way of breathing. His only way of staying put together. His love. His glue. He deepened the kiss.

The kiss felt as if it lasted for hours. So many emotions released through this kiss. The love. The passion. The need. He needed this right now. He needed her. He laid her back on the couch and kissed down her neck. She moaned out in pleasure as he made his way to her spot. He kissed her neck and traveled down to the crest of her breast. He pulled her shirt over her head and removed her bra. He pulled her nipple into his mouth and sucked as if her body was his only supplement for living. His only chance at life. She moaned and rubbed the back of his head fighting the need to grind her body into his. She needed this. She wanted this.
He picked her up and carried her to her room eager to finish what they had started. Eager to express his love. He laid her on the bed and kissed down her body. Once he made it to the top of her pants he unbuttoned them and slid his tongue across her skin. He felt the heat radiating off of her body as he placed slow sensual kisses all over. He slowly removed her pants before going and kissing her lips again. She darted her tongue into his mouth and gripped the sides of his shirt moaning. He lifted off of her and removed his t-shirt. He slowly went back to her and made his way down to her now soaked thong. He removed her thong and blew down her slick folds. Her body shivered as she moaned letting him know she wanted more. He quickly licked up her folds and watched as her body jerked forward letting him know she wanted this.

He moved his tongue around her clit and sucked her into his mouth. She moaned and tried to escape his mouth because as much as she felt she needed this the over dramatic emotions that they both felt moved throughout her making her orgasm more extreme. She yelled and moaned as he continued though he hadn't understood a word that come out of her mouth he read her and she wanted more. He sucked, licked, and plunged his tongue in and out of her until he felt she had enough. He released her and gave her a passionate kiss letting her taste her juices. He grunted when she pulled him closer and stuck her had down the front of his basketball shorts. She gripped him and pushed him back enough so she can sit and he was standing directly in front of her. He pushed his basketball shorts and boxers down and massaged his erection. She looked up at the pleasure on his face and swiftly licked his tip. He took a deep breath and she pulled him forward into her mouth. She deep throated him and pulled him out again massaging his erection.

He felt the ultimate pleasure as she worked him into her mouth. It had never been this intense before. He had never showed his emotions but tonight there was no use in trying to hide them when she read him like a book. He pushed her back right before he came in her mouth and plunged into her releasing everything he had. He needed more. He stayed in her and kissed her until he felt himself harden again. He wanted this. He slowly begin to plunge in and out of her making her moan and beg for more. He kissed her neck and made passion marks still going at the same pace. He wanted this to last as long as possible. She couldn't take it. He was driving her crazy with his slow thrusts making her reach her peak earlier than expected. Her orgasm made him go into overdrive.

He begin to move in and out of her at a quick pace. He went harder, faster, and deeper. It was like he couldn't control himself and she was enjoying every minute of it. She gave him back everything he gave. She flipped him over and rode him. She grind her hips as she felt pleasure zip through her body like lightening zipping through the sky. Tired of her pace Safaree grabbed her and slammed her down on him and in return received a scream that turned into a moan. He begin to bounce her up and down not letting her take control anymore as her body slumped over. She whimpered into his neck as he took over and pounded into her. He stood up still inside of her pumping. He pulled out and positioned her on her knees and elbows with her ass in the air and her head resting on the bed. He came behind her and without warning slammed into her again. He begin grinding into her breathing heavily in her ear. Her moans grew louder as she reached her peak for the third time tonight. The way her walls clenched him made him release right behind her. He pulled out and fell on the bed next to her and pulled her close.

Tonight was different. Sleep did not take over after their love making session instead they both laid there with thoughts running through their heads. Neither knew how to start so they sat there and stared at each other until Safaree broke the silence. 

“I love you Nicki.” She looked down. 

“I love you Nicki. I didn't mean anything I said earlier. I'm sorry.” He said pulling her chin up to look up at him. He saw tears in her eyes and the tore his heart apart making him angry at himself for being the cause of the hurt look on her face. 

“Why did you say that to me, Faree? What did I do?” She asked. He looked at her hurt taking over his eyes as he tried to explain. 

“You didn't do anything. I'm sorry. I just needed you to leave. I couldn't let you see me like that. You wouldn't leave. I had to make you leave.” He held his head down knowing that was no excuse to treat her the way he did. 

“Nicki. I lost my mom. I didn't want you to see me break down. I didn't want you to see me cry. I'm supposed to be the strong one. I'm supposed to comfort and protect you but I hurt you. I'm so sorry.” She sat up and pulled him up to face her. 

“Safaree, you don't always have to be strong. It's okay to cry sometimes. It's okay to break down sometimes as long as you find that strength to pick yourself back up. I'm your partner. Let me help you. You can talk to me. I won't judge you, Faree. I love you.” She explained. 

“I don't know if I can accept this. I don't know what to do.” He looked at her with pain and fear in his eyes. 

“Take one step at a time. I'm going to be here the whole way. I'm going to help you through this. I loved her as if she was my own mother. I will always be here for you. I understand you're hurting and that's your mother but baby I'm hurting too. I just have to stay strong for you. We will get through this. Together. I promise.” She said with tears falling from her eyes. 

“I love you baby.” Safaree said wiping the few tears that escaped her eyes. 

“I love you too Faree.” He laid down and pulled her next to him both falling into a peaceful sleep. This was going to be a journey.

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Hiiiiiii!!!! It's me again. Shonda. Of course. lol. Anyway, this is my new blog. It will be one shots, Short stories, and Carmen chapters. Aren't you guys excited?! Oh and btw Martha will be joining in with me on these Carmen stories. oooooh. lol. This is gonna be mad cool since I have like 8 chapters written. Yayeeee! I had to write a lot of chapters in order to post because I know if I didn't I would have left this story fa dead!!!