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Safaree woke up the next morning and crept out of bed trying not to disturb Nic. He went to the bathroom and freshened up. He couldn't think straight. He doesn't want Nicki to feel used but he couldn't stay here and look her in the face everyday without trying to control her every move. He knew her personality was too strong for him to challenge. He couldn't even see himself getting behind a wheel again let along the love of his life. He couldn't control her could he? Right now he would work on controlling himself.
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"Faree, where are you going?" Nicki asked waking up from her deep sleep.
"Ummm Imma go home and get somethings together." He sniffed.
"Baby, Are you crying?" She got up out of bed and made her way over to him.
"Naw Nic. I'm good. How you feeling?" She could hear his voice break which broke her heart all over again. Even though she was breaking inside she couldn't let him know that. She wrapped her arms around him from behind and rested her head on his back. He threw his head back and sighed. The tears flowed down his face as he fought himself internally. He needed some air.
"Faree. Talk to me." Nicki whispered. "I'm fine. I just need some air." He responded without looking at her. She felt it was more to it but couldn't figure it out. He was leaving her. He turned around and kissed her passionately.
"I love you, Onika. I love you." He cried.
"I love you too, Faree." She said as the tears escaped her eyes.
"I'll be back." That was all he said before she watched as his back disappeared out of the apartment. She couldn't understand for the life of her why this day was more emotionally draining than yesterday.
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Safaree made it outside and took a deep breath as he let the tears fall harder. He began walking the 6 miles back to his apartment. It gave him time to think but was also draining physically and emotionally. As he was walking he lost his balance and fell. When was the last time he had anything to drink or eat? He was seeing double and decided to sit there.
"Sir, Are you okay ? Do you need help?" He looked up at the old man.
"I'm fine." He said.
"Look you don't look to good. Can I give you a ride? Do I need to call an ambulance?" He said grabbing Safaree's arm.
"LET ME GO! WHAT? WHAT DO YOU WANT? I'M FINE. LEAVE." Safaree stumbled and pushed the old man before the man decided to leave him alone. He began walking again deciding he would just walk it off.
"You alright see. You got this." He coached himself as he approached the long empty road to his home.
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"Nicki? NIC-KI?" Lauren called her name for the fourth time. Every since Nicki had came to work this afternoon she has been in and out figuring something was just not right. Something was wrong. She shouldn't have let him just walk out upset this morning.
"Ummm. yeah?" She snapped out of it and looked up at Lauren.
"It's our lunch break. I was gonna meet Candi and TT for lunch. Are you down?" Lauren knew she friend needed someone to talk to and called a best friends meeting.
"Look Laur, I have so much..." "No. Look Nicki. We are not taking no for an answer. You're coming. Come on. Get up." Lauren walked over to grab Nicki's coat and car keys. Nicki looked at her crazy.
"Oh. I let my mom get my car today." Nicki nodded and left out the room behind Lauren not having enough strength to put up a fight today. She knew she need someone to talk to anyway. Holding it in was becoming too much.
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All the girls had kept quiet for the most part and watched Nicki try and keep cool. Which was weird because it was freezing outside.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi said breaking the silence. Nicki looked up at her and sighed while the other girls gave her a death glare.
"Nothing. I'm just hot." Laurens head snapped up.
"Hot? What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi sucked her teeth.
"How you just looked at me bitch? Shut up."Candi said.
"Okay, you was being rude. I'm asking a question." Lauren said. Candi threw her arms up.
"Annnd, What I said wasn't a question becaussse?" Candi raised an eyebrow.
"Bitch, You was rude. End of story." Nicki smirked but couldn't be bothered to laugh at her friends right now.
"I think he's gone." Nicki blurted out. All the girls stopped and looked at her face. Nicki put her head down as a tear fell.
"Gone? Gone where?" TT asked.
"Yeah, Where? The Safaree I know would never leave you." Candi added.
"I will cut his ass" Lauren said under her breath.
"He's not the same Safaree. That's the point! He's broken and I can't fix it. What the fuck did I go to college for if I can help all the people in my office but can't help the love of my life! What the fuck am I going to do?" Nicki broke down for the first time in 4 years. Everyone in the coffee shop looked at her while her friends crowded around and tried to calm her down. She screamed. She cried. She let it all out right there for the world to see. For everyone to see but Safaree.
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Safaree continued his walk trying to convince himself that Nicki didn't really love him so it wouldn't be so hard to leave.
"She don't love you man. She cried one time when you lost your mom. One time. How could she love you when she can stand there like nothings wrong? How the fuck could she possibly love your dumb ass?" He hit himself in the head.
"You sell drugs dog. She got a got a job. A real job." Safaree chuckled at himself.
"Nigga, you really thought she could love you? She's beautiful and you're just aright. Okay, you fine but you ain't as fine as her." He argued with himself as he watched his house come into view. Safaree felt light headed. He was feet away from his front door but stumbled before he made it. He blacked out.
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"I need to go see if my brother is okay." Lauren said to Candi & TT standing outside of Nicki's bedroom door. They took Nicki home when she began to break down at the coffee shop. Once she calmed down and fell asleep Lauren decided she would go talk and see where Safaree's head is and how he was while Candi and TT stayed with Nic.
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Lauren had been knocking on Safaree's door for about 10 minutes.
"I know his funny looking ass in there." She looked through the window and still seen nothing. She saw his car in the driveway and seen his car and knew she would never catch him walking.
"Ugh. OPEN THE DOOR, BITCH. I MEAN SAFAREEEEE, OPEN THE DOOR." She yelled trying to remind herself she was there to comfort him not to yell at him. Safaree's neighbor heard someone yelling and knocking on his door and decided to go check it out. Earlier he watched Safaree fight and talk to himself before passing out in his driveway. He rushed to him and took him to the nearest hospital after fighting with himself on if he would just leave him or not. He was and older guy and couldn't stand niggas like Safaree so watching him pay there would have been amazing for him.
Earlier
"The same nigga that said fuck you and threw money at me." The old man said. He shook his head before lifting Safaree and putting him in the back of the truck.
"Ha. Young man you better be glad I know the Lord and I ain't got work for another hour or yo ass would be grass. Good for nothing non working ass nigga." Okay, He can admit he was a little jealous of the life Safaree had. He hated working from check to check to have his wife come home from her law job looking down on him. He looked in his rear view mirror back at Safaree.
"Ugly ass. Man, I can't believe I'm doing this." He stopped in front of the hospital and laid him on the bench as a nurse approached and asked what happened. The old man shrugged not saying a word as he left and made his way to work to make that check.
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"Excuse me? Miss?"
"What?" She huffed. He looked shocked.
"I was just going to tell your disrespectful lil self he was in Freodert hospital." The man said.
"What is he doing there?" Lauren asked. The old man shrugged and walked away as Lauren fought the idea to throw a stone at his head.
"Grumpy ass man" She figured Safaree was just there to go back to where he had last seen his mom. She made her way to the hospital while calling to check on Nicki. Candi answered the phone sounding like she had a mouth full of food.
"Hewoo" Candi answered. Lauren chuckled.
"Bitch swallow." Lauren said.
"Shut up. What?" Candi asked.
"I went to Safaree house and that old evil ass man next door said he was at the hospital." Lauren explained.
"Hospital? What happened? I ain't telling Nic!" Candi yelled.
"If your loud mouth ass already haven't told her. Stop yelling. I think he's just there because of his mom. Ya know?" Lauren asked trying to remain positive.
"No! I don't know. Why would he go there when he can always go to her grave. Duh?! I knew something was wrong. Damn, I felt it. What you gonna tell Nic?" Candi asked.
"Tell Nic? Oh naw TT telling Nic!" Lauren said.
"You childish." Candi said.
"How? You said it first" Lauren asked.
"You know what just hurry up and see of he's okay. Call us back with details." Candi said before ending the call.
Safaree woke up the next morning and crept out of bed trying not to disturb Nic. He went to the bathroom and freshened up. He couldn't think straight. He doesn't want Nicki to feel used but he couldn't stay here and look her in the face everyday without trying to control her every move. He knew her personality was too strong for him to challenge. He couldn't even see himself getting behind a wheel again let along the love of his life. He couldn't control her could he? Right now he would work on controlling himself.
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"Faree, where are you going?" Nicki asked waking up from her deep sleep.
"Ummm Imma go home and get somethings together." He sniffed.
"Baby, Are you crying?" She got up out of bed and made her way over to him.
"Naw Nic. I'm good. How you feeling?" She could hear his voice break which broke her heart all over again. Even though she was breaking inside she couldn't let him know that. She wrapped her arms around him from behind and rested her head on his back. He threw his head back and sighed. The tears flowed down his face as he fought himself internally. He needed some air.
"Faree. Talk to me." Nicki whispered. "I'm fine. I just need some air." He responded without looking at her. She felt it was more to it but couldn't figure it out. He was leaving her. He turned around and kissed her passionately.
"I love you, Onika. I love you." He cried.
"I love you too, Faree." She said as the tears escaped her eyes.
"I'll be back." That was all he said before she watched as his back disappeared out of the apartment. She couldn't understand for the life of her why this day was more emotionally draining than yesterday.
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Safaree made it outside and took a deep breath as he let the tears fall harder. He began walking the 6 miles back to his apartment. It gave him time to think but was also draining physically and emotionally. As he was walking he lost his balance and fell. When was the last time he had anything to drink or eat? He was seeing double and decided to sit there.
"Sir, Are you okay ? Do you need help?" He looked up at the old man.
"I'm fine." He said.
"Look you don't look to good. Can I give you a ride? Do I need to call an ambulance?" He said grabbing Safaree's arm.
"LET ME GO! WHAT? WHAT DO YOU WANT? I'M FINE. LEAVE." Safaree stumbled and pushed the old man before the man decided to leave him alone. He began walking again deciding he would just walk it off.
"You alright see. You got this." He coached himself as he approached the long empty road to his home.
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"Nicki? NIC-KI?" Lauren called her name for the fourth time. Every since Nicki had came to work this afternoon she has been in and out figuring something was just not right. Something was wrong. She shouldn't have let him just walk out upset this morning.
"Ummm. yeah?" She snapped out of it and looked up at Lauren.
"It's our lunch break. I was gonna meet Candi and TT for lunch. Are you down?" Lauren knew she friend needed someone to talk to and called a best friends meeting.
"Look Laur, I have so much..." "No. Look Nicki. We are not taking no for an answer. You're coming. Come on. Get up." Lauren walked over to grab Nicki's coat and car keys. Nicki looked at her crazy.
"Oh. I let my mom get my car today." Nicki nodded and left out the room behind Lauren not having enough strength to put up a fight today. She knew she need someone to talk to anyway. Holding it in was becoming too much.
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All the girls had kept quiet for the most part and watched Nicki try and keep cool. Which was weird because it was freezing outside.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi said breaking the silence. Nicki looked up at her and sighed while the other girls gave her a death glare.
"Nothing. I'm just hot." Laurens head snapped up.
"Hot? What the hell is wrong with you?" Candi sucked her teeth.
"How you just looked at me bitch? Shut up."Candi said.
"Okay, you was being rude. I'm asking a question." Lauren said. Candi threw her arms up.
"Annnd, What I said wasn't a question becaussse?" Candi raised an eyebrow.
"Bitch, You was rude. End of story." Nicki smirked but couldn't be bothered to laugh at her friends right now.
"I think he's gone." Nicki blurted out. All the girls stopped and looked at her face. Nicki put her head down as a tear fell.
"Gone? Gone where?" TT asked.
"Yeah, Where? The Safaree I know would never leave you." Candi added.
"I will cut his ass" Lauren said under her breath.
"He's not the same Safaree. That's the point! He's broken and I can't fix it. What the fuck did I go to college for if I can help all the people in my office but can't help the love of my life! What the fuck am I going to do?" Nicki broke down for the first time in 4 years. Everyone in the coffee shop looked at her while her friends crowded around and tried to calm her down. She screamed. She cried. She let it all out right there for the world to see. For everyone to see but Safaree.
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Safaree continued his walk trying to convince himself that Nicki didn't really love him so it wouldn't be so hard to leave.
"She don't love you man. She cried one time when you lost your mom. One time. How could she love you when she can stand there like nothings wrong? How the fuck could she possibly love your dumb ass?" He hit himself in the head.
"You sell drugs dog. She got a got a job. A real job." Safaree chuckled at himself.
"Nigga, you really thought she could love you? She's beautiful and you're just aright. Okay, you fine but you ain't as fine as her." He argued with himself as he watched his house come into view. Safaree felt light headed. He was feet away from his front door but stumbled before he made it. He blacked out.
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"I need to go see if my brother is okay." Lauren said to Candi & TT standing outside of Nicki's bedroom door. They took Nicki home when she began to break down at the coffee shop. Once she calmed down and fell asleep Lauren decided she would go talk and see where Safaree's head is and how he was while Candi and TT stayed with Nic.
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Lauren had been knocking on Safaree's door for about 10 minutes.
"I know his funny looking ass in there." She looked through the window and still seen nothing. She saw his car in the driveway and seen his car and knew she would never catch him walking.
"Ugh. OPEN THE DOOR, BITCH. I MEAN SAFAREEEEE, OPEN THE DOOR." She yelled trying to remind herself she was there to comfort him not to yell at him. Safaree's neighbor heard someone yelling and knocking on his door and decided to go check it out. Earlier he watched Safaree fight and talk to himself before passing out in his driveway. He rushed to him and took him to the nearest hospital after fighting with himself on if he would just leave him or not. He was and older guy and couldn't stand niggas like Safaree so watching him pay there would have been amazing for him.
Earlier
"The same nigga that said fuck you and threw money at me." The old man said. He shook his head before lifting Safaree and putting him in the back of the truck.
"Ha. Young man you better be glad I know the Lord and I ain't got work for another hour or yo ass would be grass. Good for nothing non working ass nigga." Okay, He can admit he was a little jealous of the life Safaree had. He hated working from check to check to have his wife come home from her law job looking down on him. He looked in his rear view mirror back at Safaree.
"Ugly ass. Man, I can't believe I'm doing this." He stopped in front of the hospital and laid him on the bench as a nurse approached and asked what happened. The old man shrugged not saying a word as he left and made his way to work to make that check.
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"Excuse me? Miss?"
"What?" She huffed. He looked shocked.
"I was just going to tell your disrespectful lil self he was in Freodert hospital." The man said.
"What is he doing there?" Lauren asked. The old man shrugged and walked away as Lauren fought the idea to throw a stone at his head.
"Grumpy ass man" She figured Safaree was just there to go back to where he had last seen his mom. She made her way to the hospital while calling to check on Nicki. Candi answered the phone sounding like she had a mouth full of food.
"Hewoo" Candi answered. Lauren chuckled.
"Bitch swallow." Lauren said.
"Shut up. What?" Candi asked.
"I went to Safaree house and that old evil ass man next door said he was at the hospital." Lauren explained.
"Hospital? What happened? I ain't telling Nic!" Candi yelled.
"If your loud mouth ass already haven't told her. Stop yelling. I think he's just there because of his mom. Ya know?" Lauren asked trying to remain positive.
"No! I don't know. Why would he go there when he can always go to her grave. Duh?! I knew something was wrong. Damn, I felt it. What you gonna tell Nic?" Candi asked.
"Tell Nic? Oh naw TT telling Nic!" Lauren said.
"You childish." Candi said.
"How? You said it first" Lauren asked.
"You know what just hurry up and see of he's okay. Call us back with details." Candi said before ending the call.
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